Somehow, we’re here—1.5 years into motherhood, with a toddler on my hip. Feels like just yesterday I was convinced that 8 months was a toddler (and honestly, I still stand by that). But now, we’re fully in it. The opinions, the energy, the mess, the why is there peanut butter on EVERYTHING and crumbs EVERYWHERE?? It’s a whole new level of chaos, and I’m just trying to keep up.

Working from home with a toddler? Yeah, it’s exactly as unhinged as you’d imagine. Some days, I manage to keep my head above water. Other days, I’m chasing my toddler and dog back and forth hitting 10,000 steps by 11 AM. And don’t even get me started on trying to leave the house—I swear it takes three business days to get fully ready and a lot of times I just want to say fuck it, we’re not going lol. I want coffee, but not that badly.

But for every moment of absolute what is my life, there’s a moment of oh wow, I love this so much this is what I was meant to do with my life. The tiny hand-holding, the random belly laughs, the way they look at you like you’re their whole world. It’s messy, exhausting, and nothing like the cute aesthetic I thought I’d be pulling off—but it’s real, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

So if you’re also in the trenches of motherhood, just know you’re not alone. I think every stage is hard and we’re all just figuring it out, covered in mystery stains, running on caffeine and vibes.

I’m also just honestly so glad you’re here. Social media is fun and all, but there’s something different about knowing someone took the time to read some of my writing on the blog. It feels like sharing my personal journal with the world—exciting AND vulnerable, if I’m being honest.

I’m done taking a year hiatus, and I’m looking forward to sharing more about work, life as a mom, and the never-ending attempt to balance the two. Motherhood has this wild way of pulling you in opposite directions. Ellen Pompeo put it best on the latest Call Her Daddy episode: You can’t be 100% at both—your heart is in two different places. That’s exactly how I feel. You can do it all, but it won’t always feel like you’re giving your all to everything at once. And that’s okay.

If that sentiment resonates with you—welcome! This is a safe space!

Also if you found me from this post here’s a little more context on me. I’ve been online for as long as I can remember—literally since I tried (and failed) to build a MySpace page in second grade. No internet supervision, just pure chaos. I started as a YouTuber at 15 under the channel glamxoglam (thank god they released the update where you could change channel handles), then I moved on to megansedit, and now, I feel like I’m finally finding my groove! Recently, I’ve been cleaning up my digital footprint, but one thing has stayed the same—I love creating and sharing online! I don’t label myself a mom blogger because I am my own person too, and I am BIG on reducing my baby’s digital footprint just based on my experience with a 15 year footprint I still can’t seem to fix. BUT… motherhood and navigating a career is a hot mess and I know so many other women feel this way, or will feel like this someday when they go on this journey.

This next chapter for me I’m here to keep it real—candid, transparent, and honest—because I know I’m not the only mom stumbling her way through this. This is my first post in a HOT MINUTE but I can’t wait to see what this space becomes.